thank you mexico.
Paying tribute and giving thanks to a land that helped me heal, refresh, assess, prioritize, and taught me all i ever needed to know about life. These life lessons I will take everywhere with me. In my heart, in my soul, and in my smile. No matter where I go. I will never forget how mexico changed me, what it gave me, shared, taught, and blessed me with.
Thank you Mexico. For teaching me about life.
1. Thank you for accepting and embracing me the way I am. Thank you for showing me and proving to me that I am just fine being me, wonderful even, and that i dont need to change. For anyone, any place, any society, or any person. I am me, and I should be proud of that. And not stuff it at the bottom of a backpack like I used to, but instead, pull it out, dust it off, and wear it with sequins, blowing in the wind, free and all shiny. You never cared how much money I had. You didnt care if I wore a bikini with cowboy boots to the grocery store, all sandy from the ocean and sweaty from the good life. You didnt care if I didnt have pesos on me but really wanted a cerveza one day. Because you believed me when I said I would come back the next day and pay. You never cared where I lived, or what I believed. You never judged me. You never told me I couldnt do something because I am supposed to live a different way. You showed me belief and trust in the human spirit, still, after so long of humanity challenging that. You allowed me to be me, and supported my journey on this quest to know, or be reminded, or be released, to be who i am. You gave me comfort to freely, think, be, live, say, and wear, whatever i wanted, in order to be me. And from that I flowed out, like a river. Once I opened the gates. Thank you for enabling me to open my gates.
2. Thank you for showing me that things I thought mattered before, dont really matter at all. Thank you for humbling me. Like houses and cars and makeup and corporate ladders and department stores. And air conditioning and furniture and conveniences. and money and things. I now know that none of that stuff matters. You showed me how to live by my heart, and detach from this stuff and attach to differences. Like family. and nature. writing, happiness, sunshine, patience, and love. All of that stuff, man, we just dont need it. But we never give it up. We only learn this when we really just dont have it anymore. I just dont want it anymore. The most meaningful worthwhile precious expensive things on this planet arent things. They are moments. memories, feelings. like the sunshine piercing down on a paradise day. And watching your daughter make new best friends in another country. snorkeling holding hands with my baby. Having family living in the same palapa to help raise children, cook tortillas, hang laundry, and love each other, 24 hours a day. man it doesnt matter the size of their palapa. it doesnt matter their new wall art or renovated bathroom or manicured lawn. its a palapa. and thats all. but inside it, they have each other. And at the end of the day, this is what matters. Not how clean the walls are, or how many multimedia resources a school has. Not how perfect life should look. Not sitting around talking about what you have, pretending who you are, and comparing stats and possessions and talking about ourselves. At the end of the day, what matters is how you helped others, how much you smiled, and how much you dont have. because the less you have, the stronger your heart is. the more grounded you are. its not the size of your palapa, its whats inside.
3. Thank you for showing me nature. In raw form, so beautiful. Waiting for us to explore. waiting to share, embrace, notice. Thank you for beautiful sunrises and sunsets, green lagoons and cenotes, crystal blue skies, aquamarine seas, fish, iguanas, birds, rocky coves and reefs and smooth white sands. Placid days and high tides, mussels, seahorses, jungle palms and morning dew. Its so beautiful. all of it. Thank you for showing me that a cenote is a day adventure instead of a driveby photo spot. Thank you for reminding me that happiness comes in moonbeams and sparkly diamond waters and star-filled skies, instead of bank accounts and shopping errands and new shiny kitchen appliances or area rugs or saturday nights out.
4. Thank you for showing me myself. How naturally beautiful I am. with no makeup or slimming dresses or hair products. Thank you for showing me how strong I am, and creative. Thank you for showing me that I could do things I had always dreamed, no matter my baggage, no matter what others say. Thank you for showing me how strong I am, and that no matter what I have or dont have, I am amazing, because I am me. Like no other. All unique. Thank you for believing in me and providing me with a space to think and be, and figure out this thing called life.
5. Thank you for renewing my relationship with my daughter. And giving us the space to be together as equals, all day, learning, sharing, growing, and experiencing, together.
6. Thank you for caring for me. Thank you for humbling me and healing me, and putting back happiness in my heart, and encouraging me to see the tiny moments in life, to not have expectations, express gratitude, and think from the bottom up, instead of the top down. Thank you for providing a refuge from all things American. Thank you for patience and freedom. Thank you for restoring me to be healthy, in my mind, body, heart, and soul. Thank you for balancing me out of the traumas and stressors and heartaches and materialism and competition and selfishness and greed that other worlds breed and foster and multiply. Thank you for never letting me fall, but keeping me right on the brink, so that I would learn these lessons as powerfully as I have. Thank you for being there for me when I have needed you, for reframing my heart and mind, in order for me to be able to leave you anew, with love for your beautiful culture, people, land, and amazing gratitude for our time together and my life shift. Thank you for delicious street taco stands that shouldnt be passed by for a fancy establishment, thank you for yummy fresh fruit that should be eaten and not cast off for being mexican. Thank you for efficient public transportation systems that allowed me to see more of you, and thank you kind people for smiles all times of day. Thank you for international friendships with amazing people who also adore you for all of the same reasons i do. Thank you for your safe haven of love and acceptance and simplicity and beauty. I am forever grateful.
So thank you Mexico… for teaching me about life… the right way.
Update one year later: And because of this, we are moving back in october. Viva Mexico!!!